It's Tuesday!

Woke up to my body sore! Yesterday I was a bit frustrated with myself. I could had run longer if not because of my legs that were falling apart! I know, I know. I shouldn't be forcing myself way too much but I just can't help it!

I really need to lose my weight! I'm way too fat!! My BMI is... Hmmm, let's keep that a secret first haha? Anyway, I just started this workout thingy about a week now and people always say, the beginning is always the most difficult part. Well baby, how right were they!

I've been off track for more than 4 years. I mean, I didn't do any workout or joined any sports within 4 years except "eating-marathon". I loveeeeeeeeee foods! Thanks to my boyfriend! Our eating habit makes us the best "piggies" in the world. I wasn't  a big eater back then. I even have to take some vitamins because I was way too skinny. When I was 21 years old, I only weighted 49kg but then, look at me now. I'm 26 and I'm all fats!

Remember I talked about my Instagram addiction in my previous post? While I was browsing over my followers updates, I stumble on fitness accounts created by people whose post is to inspires others in losing weight and staying healthy. Little by little, I began to like the the pictures and my brain keeps on telling me, "It's time".

When I finally decided to start working out, I asked my cousin brother to join in. He gladly does and we were off to our first cardio session. Three days later, he quit. The thought of not wanting to workout alone makes me lazy. I decided to give my body a rest till I, myself become completely lazy.

But then, Instagram posts makes me feel motivated. Looking at those define abs! Looking at pictures of "before and after" makes me want to have one too! SO here I am again, pushing my body to the limits in ensuring I can get my dream body!


Key of motivation? TATTOOS!




I promised myself, I'll get more ink once I'm back to my old body! With all the tattoos design I have now, I know, I'll be able to achieved my dream body soon! SOON baby!

2013? June? First post!

Lamanya sudah tidak mengupdatekan diri di laman blog ini. Mau dekat dua tahun juga oh!
I wonder if people still read blog nowadays.

Anyhow, I moved back to Kota Kinabalu for almost 2 years now. Life was slow along the way ever since. I stopped using Facebook, I rarely on Twitter but my addiction is Instagram. I have two Instagram accounts but I'm only active on one particular account. Reason for addiction? One picture tells thousand stories. Enough said.

So, back to the blog story. I'm very outdated now! It took me 1 hour just to figure out the new layout! I don't even know how to use the whole function yet. If not because of my friend, I wont be posting here again. I still feels vulnerable with online diary. It take a huge toll on my life last year. I have to reshape myself. Building trust again.

But, enough with negativity. I'm here to give my blogging skill a second try. If it still wont work out, I guess I'm not born to be a writer. Haha!

Dear sweetheart,

I wonder why things had turn out bitter recently.
Why things changed so rapidly, leaving me astonished behind?
Watching your reflection in my dreams, they, no longer sweeten my sleeps.
Many times I broke down on my knees, falling for the pain that thrust my heart.
I sleep with tears, woke up to my very own tears the next day.
I am beyond despair.
Wondering day and night, like there's no tomorrow yet when the day come, I began counting my tears again.
I'm tired, tired of being neglected
I wish, one day.. HAPPINESS will come knocking on my front door.